Days like this kick my ass.

Its days like this that I feel alone. I miss her so much. My soulmate, the love of my life, my perfect woman. I miss how she would tell me that everything is going to be ok and that no matter what i choose she'll stand by me. How, without speaking, she knows exactly how to ease my troubled heart and slow my racing mind. How she understands the dilemma I'm in and patiently waits with me until i can sort it out. How she can make me forget everything...everything with just one touch of her lips. How she can lay her head on my chest, allowing me to breathe her in, instantly bringing me to a peaceful slumber.

But how can i miss these things when I've never met her.

It's not so much hearing about other people being in love, having their teenage romance. Or seeing couples together, doing things i can only dream of. Or listening to the love songs that i wish i could sing. It's days like this, when i have a really difficult decision to make or when i get really good news. I have no one to share the burden or the success with.
This is silly, but love is like math...Its about taking away the loneliness, adding comfort, dividing the sadness, and multiplying the joy. To never have to face a tragedy alone. To always have someone to share your success with and be proud of you, making you feel even better. This is what love should be. Not two people looking into eachother, but two people looking out together. Hand in hand, ready to take on the slings and arrows of the world.

I miss you. Lets find US soon.